Hearts Redemption

I have become the very thing
I despise in the world
My thought are consumed in greed
Rooted in an assortment of fears

When I ask myself if it is enough
I scrouge around, planning—
Embodying my fears and insecurities

What is my past?
How did I get to this point?
And the future; what of it?

I don’t even know who I am
What do I want now?
Who am I truly.

There have been many times
I consumed food without hunger
I slept without being tired
I strived to work hard on tasks that were unnecessary
While ignoring the way of my heart.

The path is there;
I can smell it
in the enchanted forest air,
I can see it
on coastal cliffs,
I can taste it
In wild mint,
I can hear it
In the meadow birds song,
I can feel it
In my body,
even to the depth of my bones.

The path being ignored
For so long; my body aches at right action,
My heart is full of fear

Yet every time I conqer that fear,
And every time I resist the pain
When I refuse to quit
No matter the cost
I grow stronger.